If you've never know what's a skunk..check my brother out...I didnt mean check him out check him out..I ment go look at his freakin assy face...you'l get me..
Like seriously...PLEASE give me a freakin prize for tolerating him for my life...I can donate him if anybody wants him..!!! just remember his got PMS now and he needs to change his overflowed pad every 5 minutes..
Asshole!
Carmen
10:53am
31.12.2010
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
December
I just noticed that...my favourite month is December<3
Welcome December,
just wanna tell you that I just found out Im in love with you without a reason:)
Carmen
1.12.2010
6:38pm
Fictionary
Why isnt the world fictionated??haha...
If, this world IS all fiction..I bet alians will,too,desperately want to come to earth:D
Gah..Fiction.Fiction.Fiction.I guess Im really into these kinda stuff...No WONDER mom's so worried about me:) haha... sorry mom!! You would be as adicted as me if you try reading one...or maybe more adicted than I am:D
Fiction,is the only FAKE thing I like in this world... It's fake that it's so REal...
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Soulmate
SOULMATE...
One thing that they'd said in Night World--the novel.
In reality..Does anyone believe in soulmate?? Will I meet mine?? It doesnt matter the age,the looks or if they're enemies...they're just MENT TO BE TOGETHER..they're SOULMATES...But of course,in the novel,where I read until,are all nice endings..because it's really hard to SEPERATE soulmates...REALLY HARD..
They said that, When soulmate found each other,they'll have this very very special feeling..like electric shock,I mean like when they LOOKED at each other DIRECTLY...
But,they can also feel something when they TOUCH..:) It's like magic..Nobody can control it:)
I would really wanna have THAT..:P
I would REALLY wanna know if ANYONE,in this world,have ever had that feeling... ??
Carmen
28.11.2010
8:08pm
One thing that they'd said in Night World--the novel.
In reality..Does anyone believe in soulmate?? Will I meet mine?? It doesnt matter the age,the looks or if they're enemies...they're just MENT TO BE TOGETHER..they're SOULMATES...But of course,in the novel,where I read until,are all nice endings..because it's really hard to SEPERATE soulmates...REALLY HARD..
They said that, When soulmate found each other,they'll have this very very special feeling..like electric shock,I mean like when they LOOKED at each other DIRECTLY...
But,they can also feel something when they TOUCH..:) It's like magic..Nobody can control it:)
I would really wanna have THAT..:P
I would REALLY wanna know if ANYONE,in this world,have ever had that feeling... ??
Carmen
28.11.2010
8:08pm
Night World
Night world<3
Night world,is actually the name of 8 series of books.
I’m reading the 3rd book now..It’s really nice:)
I like Mary-Lynnette..Her character is exactly like mine:)..just maybe a LIL different.
The name ‘Night world’, also gave me a lil idea of myself..hmm..okay…see Night world,to me includes DARKNESS.COLD.PEACE.SAFETY.and the whole GALAXY above the sky… really..It feels nice to even just THINK of it:)
Mary-Lynnette said that she felt safe at night..It’s like the night belongs to her..well that was what I was thinking before I read the 2nd book, where Mary-Lynnette only appear :)I wrote it here too…but I kinda forgotten the title..
I don’t know if anyone would ever think like me… Like this. Really, like if anyone could feel how I felt for the night…SO PEACEFUL…and NICE.
Owh right,
Late evening (about 7 o’clock, for Malaysia) Look up the sky, It’s very beautiful…Try looking at it EVERY eveningJ MEZMERIZINGJ AWsome. It is because the sky will change its colour and pattern every day…Really just try once, it’s lovely:)
Carmen
27.11.2010
6:00pm
Night world,is actually the name of 8 series of books.
I’m reading the 3rd book now..It’s really nice:)
I like Mary-Lynnette..Her character is exactly like mine:)..just maybe a LIL different.
The name ‘Night world’, also gave me a lil idea of myself..hmm..okay…see Night world,to me includes DARKNESS.COLD.PEACE.SAFETY.and the whole GALAXY above the sky… really..It feels nice to even just THINK of it:)
Mary-Lynnette said that she felt safe at night..It’s like the night belongs to her..well that was what I was thinking before I read the 2nd book, where Mary-Lynnette only appear :)I wrote it here too…but I kinda forgotten the title..
I don’t know if anyone would ever think like me… Like this. Really, like if anyone could feel how I felt for the night…SO PEACEFUL…and NICE.
Owh right,
Late evening (about 7 o’clock, for Malaysia) Look up the sky, It’s very beautiful…Try looking at it EVERY eveningJ MEZMERIZINGJ AWsome. It is because the sky will change its colour and pattern every day…Really just try once, it’s lovely:)
Carmen
27.11.2010
6:00pm
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Back to standard 4.amazing
I never thought that I would EVER havea chance to go back to Standard 4..
But,
I do:)
Im in Thai now..studying in a Standard 4 class.
Omgawd let me tell ya HOW AWSOME it is:)
Today's my 2nd day attending this school:) Learnt alot..but still Im not able to pronounce the words correctly,which is actually ALL WRONG..:P
Im trying my best to learn everything..
All those kids...they're sooo darn Friendly!! really!! I really really loved them..
The first day,
My brother and I went in to a class..then they were like all running out and looked in..o.o cute right??? haha..they're classroom,but they ran out and turn they're heads and looked from the window at us.:D
they the rest of the day was awsome:) got to learn a lot:) It was really fun!!
I met this girl, Yeng.
Cute and friendly:)Her father is a Malaysian,but she's Thai. So she knows a little Chinese. And she's a like the translator:)
And guess what?I fell in love with this 9 year old thai boy!!(though they're standard 4,they're still 9,they start school early:) )
Biea(I guess it's spelt that way,they write in thai though)
OHMY..like who wouldnt??:) drop dead charming!!He's got that freakin charming smile!!! omg why isnt he like 16??If he's freakin 16!!!I'll love him forever!! hahaXD
I'll post they're pictures;D
OKay..then the 2nd day,which is today...
I went to school and stuff..and he's like...y'know as usual,they stare:) like im special or something...well he looked at me,THA POINT ISsssss, when I found out. HE GAVE ME THAT SO-DARN-CHARMING-SMILE of his!! dang it!!! :D
Omg he's soooo assy cute!!!!!!
ugh!! hahaXD( getting high and bitchy,please dont mind,:P I dont think there's such awsome cute lil boy in M'sia)
Like really:) who wouldnt,be IN LOVE with such a cute 9-year-old-boy?? aaah:D
gonna dream of him:P
Owh and there's this gal name Cha Cha.
very cute too:) really:)
Arggghh they're ALL very cute!! It's just that I dont know all their names...but will soon know:D
Im souuu gonna take my camera to school tomorrow:)
Gonna freakin take pictures!!!
ma hobby:P
ahhhh!!!
Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.
aha..dont mind me:P
Carmen
10:44pm
But,
I do:)
Im in Thai now..studying in a Standard 4 class.
Omgawd let me tell ya HOW AWSOME it is:)
Today's my 2nd day attending this school:) Learnt alot..but still Im not able to pronounce the words correctly,which is actually ALL WRONG..:P
Im trying my best to learn everything..
All those kids...they're sooo darn Friendly!! really!! I really really loved them..
The first day,
My brother and I went in to a class..then they were like all running out and looked in..o.o cute right??? haha..they're classroom,but they ran out and turn they're heads and looked from the window at us.:D
they the rest of the day was awsome:) got to learn a lot:) It was really fun!!
I met this girl, Yeng.
Cute and friendly:)Her father is a Malaysian,but she's Thai. So she knows a little Chinese. And she's a like the translator:)
And guess what?I fell in love with this 9 year old thai boy!!(though they're standard 4,they're still 9,they start school early:) )
Biea(I guess it's spelt that way,they write in thai though)
OHMY..like who wouldnt??:) drop dead charming!!He's got that freakin charming smile!!! omg why isnt he like 16??If he's freakin 16!!!I'll love him forever!! hahaXD
I'll post they're pictures;D
OKay..then the 2nd day,which is today...
I went to school and stuff..and he's like...y'know as usual,they stare:) like im special or something...well he looked at me,THA POINT ISsssss, when I found out. HE GAVE ME THAT SO-DARN-CHARMING-SMILE of his!! dang it!!! :D
Omg he's soooo assy cute!!!!!!
ugh!! hahaXD( getting high and bitchy,please dont mind,:P I dont think there's such awsome cute lil boy in M'sia)
Like really:) who wouldnt,be IN LOVE with such a cute 9-year-old-boy?? aaah:D
gonna dream of him:P
Owh and there's this gal name Cha Cha.
very cute too:) really:)
Arggghh they're ALL very cute!! It's just that I dont know all their names...but will soon know:D
Im souuu gonna take my camera to school tomorrow:)
Gonna freakin take pictures!!!
ma hobby:P
ahhhh!!!
Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.
aha..dont mind me:P
Carmen
10:44pm
Monday, November 22, 2010
Goin EMO
I guess I'll be going EMO again.
Like seriously, I think EMO suits me..
Being happy all the time,doesnt mean that Im always that happy. It doesnt mean that I can always have happiness around me.
On the otherside,
Being EMO, I dont need to care about ANY emotions. Happiness may come to me and surprise me,but if it doesnt appear,I wouldnt get hurt again and again by UNhappiness.
EMO,
Can protect me from Harm AND UNhappiness.
Can keep me quite and slim too *wink* haha...
really...
All the combinations of the things I like leads,a lil, to EMO.
P/s: I JUst figured that out.
Though,
my type of EMO is not the VERY SERIOUS kind...
Mine is totally different,but still,counted as EMO.
I still talk and smile( when I feel like. Or when I have to. Or when happiness surprised me.)and eat chocolate(and try my best not to. cause I wanna be slim...get it?)and I dont know..Just,I'm still normal..but at the same time...abnormal...==(okay I really dont get what am I saying--) BY the way, that's what I wanted to be:D
Carmen
5:29pm
22.11.2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Love.
Kissing your soulmate with THIS move is so dang AWSOME!!:D this is a Girl kissing a BOY...
THIS is a BOY kissing a Girl ;D
cool huh??:DD
Carmen
11:41am
22.11.2010
Darkness or Light? Cold or Hot?
Do you prefer Darkness? Or the Light??
Well I prefer darness...
I love night time...
I dont know why do I love the dark and the cold so much...
It's like everytime when night and darkness breaks in..I feel peace.
You'll have to be someone like me to feel it..I cant explain how much I love the dark...
I feel safe in the dark.
No one can see me.
So I know, that Im safer than there's anything to protect me...
And the breez of night time...
If feels so... comfortable :)
Night.Darkness.Cold.
Is my world.
Carmen
10:17am
22.11.2010
Already In Thailand
Morning!!!
Im In Thailand!!
Reached here yesterday night 9 something M'sia time:D
It's an hour difference here..
So...I saw my sister:) she changed A LOT!! Taller,slimmer.
She misses me but she treat me like a stranger..I mean,she didnt,but I just felt something weird between me and her last night...BUT THEN, when we're about to sleep..she's back to her normal self...Everything's gonna be okay!!By the way,She just went to school.:)(7.30am.Thai time)
Everything is slightly different from what I saw since I was 12 years old...
Hmm...Im going to learn Thai..Going for tuition and stuff...It's gonna be a LIL tough..but I can take it,for sure:P Im going to have my breakfast first...then I'll wait for my 'a yi' to wake up..then we'll see what can we do to pass though the day:)
Im actually watching Sonny With A Chance now...Suppose to take an early bath...but I decided to finish my blog first:DD
A yi and my sister said I grew fatter== cant blame them..Im wearing sleveless== but fine.Im working it out anyways:)
Here's some pictures when we're still in M'sia..
This is when we're looking for food..near our area:) My father,My brother and I:) My father wanted to look at the camera...(for us)but then we said it's okay,you drive.hahaXDHandsome lerhh:)
Heehee.. and this is me:DD
Im In Thailand!!
Reached here yesterday night 9 something M'sia time:D
It's an hour difference here..
So...I saw my sister:) she changed A LOT!! Taller,slimmer.
She misses me but she treat me like a stranger..I mean,she didnt,but I just felt something weird between me and her last night...BUT THEN, when we're about to sleep..she's back to her normal self...Everything's gonna be okay!!By the way,She just went to school.:)(7.30am.Thai time)
Everything is slightly different from what I saw since I was 12 years old...
Hmm...Im going to learn Thai..Going for tuition and stuff...It's gonna be a LIL tough..but I can take it,for sure:P Im going to have my breakfast first...then I'll wait for my 'a yi' to wake up..then we'll see what can we do to pass though the day:)
Im actually watching Sonny With A Chance now...Suppose to take an early bath...but I decided to finish my blog first:DD
A yi and my sister said I grew fatter== cant blame them..Im wearing sleveless== but fine.Im working it out anyways:)
Here's some pictures when we're still in M'sia..
This is when we're looking for food..near our area:) My father,My brother and I:) My father wanted to look at the camera...(for us)but then we said it's okay,you drive.hahaXDHandsome lerhh:)
Me and my brother:D
Heehee.. and this is me:DD
Carmen
9:55am
22.11.2010
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Thailand
Yo yo yo!!!
Morning guys:)
Im going to Thailand very soon this morning:)
Cant wait to meet my brothers and sisters.(you wont understand if you arent close with me ;D)
Owhh..Im waiting for my father to fetch my brother and I now..but he'snot home yet..so we'll have to WAIT ..:)
I'll still be updating this cute thinggy...
Catch up!!to see what awsome stuff am I going to do in Thailand;D
By the way, I love this type of headphone..not the one im looking for,but the same kind:D
Morning guys:)
Im going to Thailand very soon this morning:)
Cant wait to meet my brothers and sisters.(you wont understand if you arent close with me ;D)
Owhh..Im waiting for my father to fetch my brother and I now..but he'snot home yet..so we'll have to WAIT ..:)
I'll still be updating this cute thinggy...
Catch up!!to see what awsome stuff am I going to do in Thailand;D
By the way, I love this type of headphone..not the one im looking for,but the same kind:D
Carmen
9:23 am
21.11.2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Thailand trip!!!! :D
Heyyyy!!!
Im going to Thailand for THE WHOLE HOLIDAY!!!
At first I wasnt that eager to go..but then I slowly think that going there aint a bad thing too..
Im going to learn how to live on my own there:)
I think the reason I feel like going at last is because I can be myself if I go to Thai this time( there's a special reason,long story)I can be myself...:)
Carmen
10:00pm
17.11.2010
Im going to Thailand for THE WHOLE HOLIDAY!!!
At first I wasnt that eager to go..but then I slowly think that going there aint a bad thing too..
Im going to learn how to live on my own there:)
I think the reason I feel like going at last is because I can be myself if I go to Thai this time( there's a special reason,long story)I can be myself...:)
Carmen
10:00pm
17.11.2010
Damned Options...
ACE or KC??
Australia,please.
Sorry I hurt your feelings ku...but I really dont know which one to choose...because there's no option for the one I really wanna go...
Ace is a nice school..interesting. But I just dont have the interest in that school...You said that you want me to be happy..yeah..you really care about my feelings but I just dont get it...Im going to be happy over there....I'm always trying my best to be happy over here...but then,Im not THAT happy still...
I dont wanna talk about Australia in front of ye guys because I dont wanna be a BRAT...I rather keep everything to myself than seeing ye guys getting disappointed..It's obvious that I've failed keeping ye guys from getting disappointed.I really tried my best to not show my feelings and let you just choose everything,I didnt know this was a WRONG thing...Im very sorry..
I really wanna go to Australia....
Daddy said that I can only stand being over there for 3 months...I dont get it...why??Does he know how much I love that place?
Mama said that I wanted to go because everyone is going.. Well I can tell you, She really freakin broke my heart...AND that is NOT true.Obviously.
Ku,you asked me why I wanted to go there so much. I said I dont know..well, I really dont know. I somehow gave you another answer by saying that I feel happy over there.It's true. You tell me that I felt happy being there because every trip to Australia was in a holiday mood. Okay,this is an acception. but then, how would you know if I wont feel happy if I live there and study there? yes.I'll be alone over there...I'll feel lonely..but...huh...I just dont get it.
I said that Val,Mayzinn are doing very well..you said because they have their parents with them..fine..
You said that I can go under 2 conditions:
#1:I can take care of myself
#2:I can catch up
Well, I'm now trying my very best to prove it to you..but to you I never seemed to pass...
That's why I would really love to keep all the feelings to myself...Everything will be so much better. I keep my feelings to myself,and everyone can live a so called HAPPY LIFE..Hopefully.
Carmen
9:30pm
17.11.2010
Australia,please.
Sorry I hurt your feelings ku...but I really dont know which one to choose...because there's no option for the one I really wanna go...
Ace is a nice school..interesting. But I just dont have the interest in that school...You said that you want me to be happy..yeah..you really care about my feelings but I just dont get it...Im going to be happy over there....I'm always trying my best to be happy over here...but then,Im not THAT happy still...
I dont wanna talk about Australia in front of ye guys because I dont wanna be a BRAT...I rather keep everything to myself than seeing ye guys getting disappointed..It's obvious that I've failed keeping ye guys from getting disappointed.I really tried my best to not show my feelings and let you just choose everything,I didnt know this was a WRONG thing...Im very sorry..
I really wanna go to Australia....
Daddy said that I can only stand being over there for 3 months...I dont get it...why??Does he know how much I love that place?
Mama said that I wanted to go because everyone is going.. Well I can tell you, She really freakin broke my heart...AND that is NOT true.Obviously.
Ku,you asked me why I wanted to go there so much. I said I dont know..well, I really dont know. I somehow gave you another answer by saying that I feel happy over there.It's true. You tell me that I felt happy being there because every trip to Australia was in a holiday mood. Okay,this is an acception. but then, how would you know if I wont feel happy if I live there and study there? yes.I'll be alone over there...I'll feel lonely..but...huh...I just dont get it.
I said that Val,Mayzinn are doing very well..you said because they have their parents with them..fine..
You said that I can go under 2 conditions:
#1:I can take care of myself
#2:I can catch up
Well, I'm now trying my very best to prove it to you..but to you I never seemed to pass...
That's why I would really love to keep all the feelings to myself...Everything will be so much better. I keep my feelings to myself,and everyone can live a so called HAPPY LIFE..Hopefully.
Carmen
9:30pm
17.11.2010
What a day...
I watched Let Me In at Tropicana City Mall with Dom and Jas today:)
The movie was awsome... Abby is pretty:) She a vampire though... I love her character:) Had a great time:)
Thanks Dom, You're a great friend:) Thanks for the card!! It's amazing...:)Very touching..
Hey Jas, please NO SKIRT next time...I cant fight my brother with a skirt on==haha...I look weird right??Actually.... I kinda like wearing skirt..but it's inconvenient for me to kick my leg up to fight my brother...hahaXD
Carmen
9:00pm
17.11.2010
The movie was awsome... Abby is pretty:) She a vampire though... I love her character:) Had a great time:)
Thanks Dom, You're a great friend:) Thanks for the card!! It's amazing...:)Very touching..
Hey Jas, please NO SKIRT next time...I cant fight my brother with a skirt on==haha...I look weird right??Actually.... I kinda like wearing skirt..but it's inconvenient for me to kick my leg up to fight my brother...hahaXD
Carmen
9:00pm
17.11.2010
Saturday, November 13, 2010
2 days... too less
It's been a long time since I posted something here... well I guess I'll post things more often nowadays since I have to days left till our holidays...
Im cryin now...in the middle of the night...because of Jaycie..thanks jaycie..:) I read her blog.I cant believe that I;ll be such an impirtant character in someone's life....really...and thank you Jaycie...(for making me cry like an asshole==):)..though..there's things I would like you to know..
Jaycie:
I love you.as a friend:)You'vereally changed...you've done well:) *thumbs up* Thank you for suffering through all my bad habbits and bad attitude.. I didnt mean to though..:P It's just that you're untoleratable sometimes:) but I know that giving you more chances wont hurt:) everybody needs chances...and you're appreciating the ones I gave you:) not bad:) Im sorry I dont have pictures about you..If I have I would put it up here:)Im really gonna miss you SUCKER:)!!!
all the best in everything:) Im always there for you:) be strong,you just have to be strong sometimes:) this is how you can live..Im telling you this THROUGH EXPERIENCE:) *wink* trust me:)
I know you'll keep it as a secret:) I know you will:)
We'll hang out sometimes:)
Always reamember,
Be strong,
DONT be too annoying *wink*
and most important,
BE YOURSELF:)
once again
I LOVE YOU:)
.....................................................................................
I went to watch movie at midvalley today with Sk, we had fun:) We watched unstoppable:)
I hope all of us could like hang out sometimes:)
Jr3F, I love ye guys:) take care:)
carmen
23:21pm
13.11.2010
Im cryin now...in the middle of the night...because of Jaycie..thanks jaycie..:) I read her blog.I cant believe that I;ll be such an impirtant character in someone's life....really...and thank you Jaycie...(for making me cry like an asshole==):)..though..there's things I would like you to know..
Jaycie:
I love you.as a friend:)You'vereally changed...you've done well:) *thumbs up* Thank you for suffering through all my bad habbits and bad attitude.. I didnt mean to though..:P It's just that you're untoleratable sometimes:) but I know that giving you more chances wont hurt:) everybody needs chances...and you're appreciating the ones I gave you:) not bad:) Im sorry I dont have pictures about you..If I have I would put it up here:)Im really gonna miss you SUCKER:)!!!
all the best in everything:) Im always there for you:) be strong,you just have to be strong sometimes:) this is how you can live..Im telling you this THROUGH EXPERIENCE:) *wink* trust me:)
I know you'll keep it as a secret:) I know you will:)
We'll hang out sometimes:)
Always reamember,
Be strong,
DONT be too annoying *wink*
and most important,
BE YOURSELF:)
once again
I LOVE YOU:)
.....................................................................................
I went to watch movie at midvalley today with Sk, we had fun:) We watched unstoppable:)
I hope all of us could like hang out sometimes:)
Jr3F, I love ye guys:) take care:)
carmen
23:21pm
13.11.2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Fat fat fat!!
I'm pregnant!!! My husband is food!!! OoO... My babies are made of fats, oil,rice,chicken!!!
Im so fattttt!!!!!!!! urgggghhh!!! fat fat fat fat fat!!!! How can I get those fats away from me??? T.T
I'm so going to go for abortion!!!!! arrrrrhhh!!!!!!
1.10.2010
10:25am
Im so fattttt!!!!!!!! urgggghhh!!! fat fat fat fat fat!!!! How can I get those fats away from me??? T.T
I'm so going to go for abortion!!!!! arrrrrhhh!!!!!!
1.10.2010
10:25am
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Please. wake me up from this nightmare...
I have bad exam results....
Going to Australia and Science stream is a no no...
Kuku said she may want me to change to Sri Kl...
This is a bad thing to hear,for me though..cause I dont wanna go to Sri Kl...I wanna go to Aus...there isnt a big difference...why not go to aus????
This year about March or April....I told her I dont wanna go to Aus anymore but I'll still try my best to get good results...because of financial problems...
It's hard for me to say "I dont wanna go to Australia" because I waited for 3 freakin years....but still she said money aint the BIG issue....she still wants me to go...then after a few months..she told me that I can choose my own school this year end...and now..she said she found a quite nice school...Sri Kl....Im still going to be in M'sia....T.T
I just wish these are all my dreams...My nightmare..and I'll wake up one day....will I??
Happy b'day Xiang..
30.9.2010
10.34am
Going to Australia and Science stream is a no no...
Kuku said she may want me to change to Sri Kl...
This is a bad thing to hear,for me though..cause I dont wanna go to Sri Kl...I wanna go to Aus...there isnt a big difference...why not go to aus????
This year about March or April....I told her I dont wanna go to Aus anymore but I'll still try my best to get good results...because of financial problems...
It's hard for me to say "I dont wanna go to Australia" because I waited for 3 freakin years....but still she said money aint the BIG issue....she still wants me to go...then after a few months..she told me that I can choose my own school this year end...and now..she said she found a quite nice school...Sri Kl....Im still going to be in M'sia....T.T
I just wish these are all my dreams...My nightmare..and I'll wake up one day....will I??
Happy b'day Xiang..
30.9.2010
10.34am
Saturday, September 25, 2010
ishhhh
.Life is complecated larr.....
Why? i dont want...
I dont want my stuff to interfere your life....
This is my problem...
Maybe everthing will work out...
yeah..
. Dont like the way things work!
such a piece of crappy shit..==
.Watch Step Up 3D the second time with friends!!!!
Xuen
Jing
Joyi
Xiang
happy o....hee hee!!!!
.thanks
Thanks Kel!!!!!!!!!!
love ya..heehee..
25.9.2010
11:08pm
Why? i dont want...
I dont want my stuff to interfere your life....
This is my problem...
Maybe everthing will work out...
yeah..
. Dont like the way things work!
such a piece of crappy shit..==
.Watch Step Up 3D the second time with friends!!!!
Xuen
Jing
Joyi
Xiang
happy o....hee hee!!!!
.thanks
Thanks Kel!!!!!!!!!!
love ya..heehee..
25.9.2010
11:08pm
Sunday, September 19, 2010
The feeling's gone now...
The Love Story.
Hahaha...teasing Fish and Quib is so funn!!
Guess what?! Jas and I found out that they're F&N!!! hahaha><
Fish is worried 'bout the longlivity of their relationship...well, I guess they wont break up..if both of them are loyal.. :) Wish you guys luck!!!
xoxo^^
That feeling for you is gone now....I guess. :)
I was over the moon when you reply my message...
I text: hey,um..sorry for being annoying last year..are we still friends??
you replied: sure:)
Then we text a few more message and you wanted to study...
The moment I ask you are we still friends..the feeling faded off..weirdly...
so I guess Im really over you and I just wanted to FRIEND you...:)
Exam suckkks.
Huh!! my history...It's totaly screwed...==
Hahaha...teasing Fish and Quib is so funn!!
Guess what?! Jas and I found out that they're F&N!!! hahaha><
Fish is worried 'bout the longlivity of their relationship...well, I guess they wont break up..if both of them are loyal.. :) Wish you guys luck!!!
xoxo^^
That feeling for you is gone now....I guess. :)
I was over the moon when you reply my message...
I text: hey,um..sorry for being annoying last year..are we still friends??
you replied: sure:)
Then we text a few more message and you wanted to study...
The moment I ask you are we still friends..the feeling faded off..weirdly...
so I guess Im really over you and I just wanted to FRIEND you...:)
Exam suckkks.
Huh!! my history...It's totaly screwed...==
Saturday, September 18, 2010
My life has changed in a weired way...
Hmm...
Im 15 this year...
Im going to be 16 already...
honestly this is the worst year of my life..
I loved you. gave up. and love you...again..
You guys are my good friends...
But the way you guys treat your relationship between friends are...scary
Im sorry...I was scared. thought that I have mental problem.Not joking.
Thought that I'll die...But thank god I didnt..I dont wanna die...It's to scary..
I tried to tolerate..but to you guys whatever I do is always wrong...*shrug* I tried to ignore what you guys think 'bout me...(well it's always a bad thing,that's why Im trying to ignore the unplesant feeling)but everytime I tried to ignore...y'guys think Im ignoring you...huh..
I tried to not quarrel with you guys and just let you guys get pissed off at me anytime you want....like Im a very flexible puppet..well seriously I dont mind. As long as you guys are satisfied.
I tried to ask what's goin on when you're pissed at me(cause I seriously dont know what on earth did I do wrong)..you choose to not tell...
I'm confussed with my life.
Life shouldn't be like that.
We should enjoy and smile always.
I love to smile. Does anyone know that? I really love smiling...but I cant any more. I actually dont FEEL like smiling. what's wrong with me? Can someone tell me?
I really wanna be me. The girl who lovvees to smile,a lot. I failed.
My life has changed.
But I dont want it this way.
Please.
Can someone tell me Im not crazy?
Can someone tell me I can be the me who think life rocks??
Can someone tell me that I'm not hated?
Can someone tell me they can help me?
Can someone tell me I'm strong?
Can someone tell me I'm a good friend instead of hating me all the time?
Can someone always love me?
Can someone tell me I have a very very stable friendship with my best friend?
Can someone just help me?
Just save me from drowning into a miserable world where things changed awkwardly,unplesantly...?
Save me from this unrealistic world of hate......
18.9.2010
10:19pm
Im 15 this year...
Im going to be 16 already...
honestly this is the worst year of my life..
I loved you. gave up. and love you...again..
You guys are my good friends...
But the way you guys treat your relationship between friends are...scary
Im sorry...I was scared. thought that I have mental problem.Not joking.
Thought that I'll die...But thank god I didnt..I dont wanna die...It's to scary..
I tried to tolerate..but to you guys whatever I do is always wrong...*shrug* I tried to ignore what you guys think 'bout me...(well it's always a bad thing,that's why Im trying to ignore the unplesant feeling)but everytime I tried to ignore...y'guys think Im ignoring you...huh..
I tried to not quarrel with you guys and just let you guys get pissed off at me anytime you want....like Im a very flexible puppet..well seriously I dont mind. As long as you guys are satisfied.
I tried to ask what's goin on when you're pissed at me(cause I seriously dont know what on earth did I do wrong)..you choose to not tell...
I'm confussed with my life.
Life shouldn't be like that.
We should enjoy and smile always.
I love to smile. Does anyone know that? I really love smiling...but I cant any more. I actually dont FEEL like smiling. what's wrong with me? Can someone tell me?
I really wanna be me. The girl who lovvees to smile,a lot. I failed.
My life has changed.
But I dont want it this way.
Please.
Can someone tell me Im not crazy?
Can someone tell me I can be the me who think life rocks??
Can someone tell me that I'm not hated?
Can someone tell me they can help me?
Can someone tell me I'm strong?
Can someone tell me I'm a good friend instead of hating me all the time?
Can someone always love me?
Can someone tell me I have a very very stable friendship with my best friend?
Can someone just help me?
Just save me from drowning into a miserable world where things changed awkwardly,unplesantly...?
Save me from this unrealistic world of hate......
18.9.2010
10:19pm
Confused feelings . LOVE
Guess what?? Quib is with Fishh^^ haha!! Good Luck guys!! Lovve ya both!!
Everyone's having a mate...hmmm...how does it feel like? haha^^ It's stupid..I'll never get to experience it anyways... blek><
YOU...
I still love you :) I guess... haha
I dont know what's wrong with me..I still love you. but, I dont care if you talk to me or ignore me any more... *shrug* this is weired... but still it's nice to have this feeling so that I can be friends with you by not annoying you :) haha.... hmm...
18.9.2010
7.52pm
Everyone's having a mate...hmmm...how does it feel like? haha^^ It's stupid..I'll never get to experience it anyways... blek><
YOU...
I still love you :) I guess... haha
I dont know what's wrong with me..I still love you. but, I dont care if you talk to me or ignore me any more... *shrug* this is weired... but still it's nice to have this feeling so that I can be friends with you by not annoying you :) haha.... hmm...
18.9.2010
7.52pm
Thursday, September 16, 2010
whYY must you exist to make my life miserable?
Gawddd I dont hell want to fall in love with you again..please..I tried so frikin hard to forget and now...you reappear in my dreamss...T.T
Exams proved that Im a failiur...
This is effing stupid mannnnn!!!! I suuuckkk!!! T.T How am I going into science streammmm?!!!! How on earthhhh, am i freakin goin' into SCIENCE STREAM!????? T.T save me mamah!!! oouuugghh!!!!
SCIENCE STREAM . SCIENCE STREAM . SCIENCE STREAM . SCIENCE STREAM .
17/9/2010
10.32AM
SCIENCE STREAM . SCIENCE STREAM . SCIENCE STREAM . SCIENCE STREAM .
17/9/2010
10.32AM
Dont wanna...
TOP NEWS!!!
(haha..not really actually...)
The Highest stage of the relationship between boys and I are till BEST FRIENDS or BROTHERS... no more...:) dont believe in soulmate thinggy.... :P
(haha..not really actually...)
The Highest stage of the relationship between boys and I are till BEST FRIENDS or BROTHERS... no more...:) dont believe in soulmate thinggy.... :P
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Sunday, June 6, 2010
Not having diet to be skinny but doing exercise to be fit!!! :)
I over used my credit again...:P
Im fat!!! arrrggghhh...I cant fit my favourite jeans anymore....T.T cus Im too fattttt....T.T I going on diet....not actua;;y diet...but I gonado much more exercise tomorrow onwards!!! First I'll wake up at 6.30 and run on the running machine then I'll take my shower and go for tuition...then go for swimming after my tuition and then do hula hoo pbefore bed...I'll eat my meal but cut down the amount of rice.I'll still eat food I love and I'll just do more exercise.That's all.I just wish I could get fitter after holidays...
I have to get an average of more than 63...dont think I can even get close to that mark...but I'll have to try. I wanna get good results...please...Im gonna study hard...My friends are gonna help me out too...I love y'allll!!!!
Sometimes Im ment to be left out.things change...but my love for y'guys??Will never change......I guess...eveyb0dy is s0 talented and me?? Im like a piece of shit.I suck to be myself..Im just a loser that wont fit in...
I'll still try to smile...eventhough I dont really ment smiling....Im sorry...
Carmen
12:09am
6.6.2010
Im fat!!! arrrggghhh...I cant fit my favourite jeans anymore....T.T cus Im too fattttt....T.T I going on diet....not actua;;y diet...but I gonado much more exercise tomorrow onwards!!! First I'll wake up at 6.30 and run on the running machine then I'll take my shower and go for tuition...then go for swimming after my tuition and then do hula hoo pbefore bed...I'll eat my meal but cut down the amount of rice.I'll still eat food I love and I'll just do more exercise.That's all.I just wish I could get fitter after holidays...
I have to get an average of more than 63...dont think I can even get close to that mark...but I'll have to try. I wanna get good results...please...Im gonna study hard...My friends are gonna help me out too...I love y'allll!!!!
Sometimes Im ment to be left out.things change...but my love for y'guys??Will never change......I guess...eveyb0dy is s0 talented and me?? Im like a piece of shit.I suck to be myself..Im just a loser that wont fit in...
I'll still try to smile...eventhough I dont really ment smiling....Im sorry...
Carmen
12:09am
6.6.2010
Friday, June 4, 2010
Life's harsh...
You made us worry..
you ruin everything..
you ruin seven people's life...
You made us sad...
what's the advantage??
Cant you just have a firm family??
why on earth must you ruin everything?!!
you ruin everything..
you ruin seven people's life...
You made us sad...
what's the advantage??
Cant you just have a firm family??
why on earth must you ruin everything?!!
Midnight
Writing my blog at midnight seems okay for me...It's 1.01am now....I acnt sleep feel like doing my homework in my room....
Today.I feel useless...Im like a useless dumd ass sitting there waiting for people to give me all the well-done work by them....sejarah project..Jas ,jaycie and sk did well..only me,the useless brat! done nothing !!!....I just dont feel good today...This project is making me feel bad...seriously..I've DONE NOTHIHNG!!NOTHING AT ALL...
How I wish to have a computer in my room...huh...so I can have privacy...hmmm....
Most of my friends are going to enjoy their holidays...but not for me...Im not enjoying....We have exams after our holidays..how on earth am I gonna relax??!! I dont have a chance to....My mom would ask me to relax,but I just cant.
I dont know what's wrong with me today...dont feel well...and Im still not sleepy yet!!! gosh I wanna sleep...but how can I sleep when im not sleepy??
I was fixing my blog's skin this evening...gah...I was sooo lame....done the whole day and yet having the same skin..==
Today.I feel useless...Im like a useless dumd ass sitting there waiting for people to give me all the well-done work by them....sejarah project..Jas ,jaycie and sk did well..only me,the useless brat! done nothing !!!....I just dont feel good today...This project is making me feel bad...seriously..I've DONE NOTHIHNG!!NOTHING AT ALL...
How I wish to have a computer in my room...huh...so I can have privacy...hmmm....
Most of my friends are going to enjoy their holidays...but not for me...Im not enjoying....We have exams after our holidays..how on earth am I gonna relax??!! I dont have a chance to....My mom would ask me to relax,but I just cant.
I dont know what's wrong with me today...dont feel well...and Im still not sleepy yet!!! gosh I wanna sleep...but how can I sleep when im not sleepy??
I was fixing my blog's skin this evening...gah...I was sooo lame....done the whole day and yet having the same skin..==
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Hostel
I've been thinking of moving into the hostel for a long time...
so I asked my mom for permission. she dont allow me to move in....I told her I woulnd have that much distractions if I move into the hostel..it's just for my result's sake....but she said she wouldnt want to miss seeing me grow up...she said I'll have a chance to stay in a hostel...i told her is not the same...she said if I move in to the hostel...we'll not have that much interaction...
my grandma..she always think in her way!! I dont like it...gosh!!! I told her it's not her fault that I wanna move into the school's hostel..i wanna move in to study..(plus it's fun to stay with your friends....)she's now upset cuz she thinks its her fault...and now it's really kinda HER fault that Im not allowed to move in...
I thought fr many days...thinking how to convince my mom....she told me she was proud of me cuz I've done my preparation(on convincing her and finding all the informations)..she told me she was convinced...I thought the same too..I thought I can convince her...I just cant think of anything,for her to disallow...but what she got is"I dont wanna miss seeing you grow up".. I was like *'SHIT'.... I asked her how on earth would see missed my growth,she said we'll have less interaction on daily stuffs like 'how am I goin on in school','how's my homework' and stuff...i told her I will tell her everything when I reached home on friday or saturday..she said that she wouldnt be fully filled with what happend...and about my grandma being upset of herself....these 2 reasons just made a PERFECT way to stop me from going....
ugh...I'm sad...extremely sad. Im fustrated.... I've been like this for the 2nd day..and it'll go on...(my fusstration)... there's a part that my mom told me about the growth thingy that eventhough there's gonna be happy,sad, angry memories but there'll be something to remeber...after that conversation..I though....from now on...there'll only be sad memories for them to remember....
Im sorry but still...
23.5.2010
so I asked my mom for permission. she dont allow me to move in....I told her I woulnd have that much distractions if I move into the hostel..it's just for my result's sake....but she said she wouldnt want to miss seeing me grow up...she said I'll have a chance to stay in a hostel...i told her is not the same...she said if I move in to the hostel...we'll not have that much interaction...
my grandma..she always think in her way!! I dont like it...gosh!!! I told her it's not her fault that I wanna move into the school's hostel..i wanna move in to study..(plus it's fun to stay with your friends....)she's now upset cuz she thinks its her fault...and now it's really kinda HER fault that Im not allowed to move in...
I thought fr many days...thinking how to convince my mom....she told me she was proud of me cuz I've done my preparation(on convincing her and finding all the informations)..she told me she was convinced...I thought the same too..I thought I can convince her...I just cant think of anything,for her to disallow...but what she got is"I dont wanna miss seeing you grow up".. I was like *'SHIT'.... I asked her how on earth would see missed my growth,she said we'll have less interaction on daily stuffs like 'how am I goin on in school','how's my homework' and stuff...i told her I will tell her everything when I reached home on friday or saturday..she said that she wouldnt be fully filled with what happend...and about my grandma being upset of herself....these 2 reasons just made a PERFECT way to stop me from going....
ugh...I'm sad...extremely sad. Im fustrated.... I've been like this for the 2nd day..and it'll go on...(my fusstration)... there's a part that my mom told me about the growth thingy that eventhough there's gonna be happy,sad, angry memories but there'll be something to remeber...after that conversation..I though....from now on...there'll only be sad memories for them to remember....
Im sorry but still...
23.5.2010
Saturday, February 27, 2010
TeaRs ArR sO IriTatinG.....
I have the feeling of crying...I dont know why...
I thought I was tha only person in tha world who has this kinda feeling..but I was wrong..ther're a few more close friends are like that to....
I hate it when my eyes produce tears even when I dont need them...huh...I like this phrase"nobody will know you better than yourself" this is so true !!! But I think my close friends know me fine...
I hate it when I cry...I have that feeling that my friends will feel "Carmen's cryin cuz she wants somebody to pity her.."...and that's bad...I dont want ppl to pity me...so I tried hell hard to hold my stupid tears from dripping outta my eyes...
But honestly...school is tha only place I can cry at...when I looked into Young's eyes....I cant stop my tears from rushing down...I always feel a little better after crying..but whatever feeling that made me feel like crying before...will come back in no time...
I wish to improve my english and my maners..I think I talk to loud and I keep shouting and screaming in class....I hate it..but I just cant help that crap to happen..so from now on..Im gonna force myself..to be polite...talk softly...and not to be so...so...bitchy??I dont know...
anyways...I hate it when I say "Har"instead of "sorry/pardon".....so I must change..It'll make me feel consoled if i'd changed....
just wish....
I thought I was tha only person in tha world who has this kinda feeling..but I was wrong..ther're a few more close friends are like that to....
I hate it when my eyes produce tears even when I dont need them...huh...I like this phrase"nobody will know you better than yourself" this is so true !!! But I think my close friends know me fine...
I hate it when I cry...I have that feeling that my friends will feel "Carmen's cryin cuz she wants somebody to pity her.."...and that's bad...I dont want ppl to pity me...so I tried hell hard to hold my stupid tears from dripping outta my eyes...
But honestly...school is tha only place I can cry at...when I looked into Young's eyes....I cant stop my tears from rushing down...I always feel a little better after crying..but whatever feeling that made me feel like crying before...will come back in no time...
I wish to improve my english and my maners..I think I talk to loud and I keep shouting and screaming in class....I hate it..but I just cant help that crap to happen..so from now on..Im gonna force myself..to be polite...talk softly...and not to be so...so...bitchy??I dont know...
anyways...I hate it when I say "Har"instead of "sorry/pardon".....so I must change..It'll make me feel consoled if i'd changed....
just wish....
Why must everything be so....complecated??O.o?
Well...it's been a long time...I'd didnt write over here....Much missed but anyways..dont feel lke posting the past....
Sometimes I have this feeling that Im hated by friends...but I really wanna know who..and why?...
Friendship aint an easy thingto go through with....the word FRIENDSHIP sounds sweet and friendly...but there's danger hiding inside witch most of us fallen it to...I've been trying by best to maintain every friendship I have with my friends...useless...trying to not let them feel left out..but at last?? they still do....I doubt if anyone have a cure to that...I wish that I can be able to stay tough enough for the rest of my life not by not making anyone of my friends hurt,left out or hate me....but of course,If you really hate me..I have nothing to say about it...
Sometimes I have this feeling that Im hated by friends...but I really wanna know who..and why?...
Friendship aint an easy thingto go through with....the word FRIENDSHIP sounds sweet and friendly...but there's danger hiding inside witch most of us fallen it to...I've been trying by best to maintain every friendship I have with my friends...useless...trying to not let them feel left out..but at last?? they still do....I doubt if anyone have a cure to that...I wish that I can be able to stay tough enough for the rest of my life not by not making anyone of my friends hurt,left out or hate me....but of course,If you really hate me..I have nothing to say about it...
Saturday, February 20, 2010
respect..
you must respect elderlys.....please...respect them...
^^you dont know why they'll leave you...and its forever.....so..please appriceate^^
^^you dont know why they'll leave you...and its forever.....so..please appriceate^^
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Tolerate....
I just need a little more tolerance.....to keep myself alife.....
Tolerance is all I need now...
I'll always get scoled eventhough Im right or wrong....so...I have to tolerate and build up my tolerations...mmmm..^^
I can do it..can I??
Tolerance is all I need now...
I'll always get scoled eventhough Im right or wrong....so...I have to tolerate and build up my tolerations...mmmm..^^
I can do it..can I??
Friday, February 12, 2010
holidays....exam....
Huh..today is the last day of school for chinese new year break...Young went to Pinang at 10 something....Just saw her once today...Miss her sooo much...
I was looking for Hai Ryun at our school assembly today but failed....at last I saw her after school on the brige^^..she asked weather can I go out to Pavilion(donno how to spell><)on my bithday....I said Im not sure....Miss her too lar...
A lot of thinhs happened these few days...I think I hurt someone's feeling..but anyways..I'd apologised...My love life sucks XP!!.....today when I was having tuition at Kasturi..there's this couple(my friend and I noticed for quite a long time already..)..they sit together in every lesson^^....they sat together..but they dont talk...can you believe it?? then suddenly...I really admire them><....long time ago..I told Young.."I admire couples but dont not wanna get involved^^"..Some of my best friends or friends...feel like having a love partner^^so I just tell them to go for it if they can handle it^^....I think couples are really sweet...I love to see couples..*weirdo>_<* haha...
I owe Jas and SK 998 tickles....uuuhhhhT.T
After the holidays....are EXAMS!!!!
HAVE TO WORK HARD T.T
I think this'sfor today^^gotta go to bed...
I was looking for Hai Ryun at our school assembly today but failed....at last I saw her after school on the brige^^..she asked weather can I go out to Pavilion(donno how to spell><)on my bithday....I said Im not sure....Miss her too lar...
A lot of thinhs happened these few days...I think I hurt someone's feeling..but anyways..I'd apologised...My love life sucks XP!!.....today when I was having tuition at Kasturi..there's this couple(my friend and I noticed for quite a long time already..)..they sit together in every lesson^^....they sat together..but they dont talk...can you believe it?? then suddenly...I really admire them><....long time ago..I told Young.."I admire couples but dont not wanna get involved^^"..Some of my best friends or friends...feel like having a love partner^^so I just tell them to go for it if they can handle it^^....I think couples are really sweet...I love to see couples..*weirdo>_<* haha...
I owe Jas and SK 998 tickles....uuuhhhhT.T
After the holidays....are EXAMS!!!!
HAVE TO WORK HARD T.T
I think this'sfor today^^gotta go to bed...
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
Hmm....
I'm tired...
Don't feel like Ive any hope...
Australia is my Aim!! but I don't think I can achieve that....
All my friends have AWESOME results..but I don't..how can I get good results?? HELL NO...NEVER!!.No WAY... sk..jas...Jc..young..hai ryun...harn...shirley ...and more friends kept asking me to cheer up and not be sad...but how??
Young told me today(8.2.2010)at the 1st recess..she's not going to AUS...its a 100%....100% is a very effective and sensitive number for me...I cant really take it...
suddenly tears kept rolling like yoyos inside my eyes...T.T...
Do I have a fake smile?
I don't really know who am I anymore...
and that's scary....
huh~
PMR..JUEC...are driving me crazy...@.@...
Gosh....phuh~
Can anyone define EMO???hmm..
Don't feel like Ive any hope...
Australia is my Aim!! but I don't think I can achieve that....
All my friends have AWESOME results..but I don't..how can I get good results?? HELL NO...NEVER!!.No WAY... sk..jas...Jc..young..hai ryun...harn...shirley ...and more friends kept asking me to cheer up and not be sad...but how??
Young told me today(8.2.2010)at the 1st recess..she's not going to AUS...its a 100%....100% is a very effective and sensitive number for me...I cant really take it...
suddenly tears kept rolling like yoyos inside my eyes...T.T...
Do I have a fake smile?
I don't really know who am I anymore...
and that's scary....
huh~
PMR..JUEC...are driving me crazy...@.@...
Gosh....phuh~
Can anyone define EMO???hmm..
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I think I ROCK!!!!!
Not to be self-conscious..but I've totally gave up on you!!!!! Can you believe it!!!OMG!!!!!!I ROCK!!!!!!!yeah Baby!!!!!Ya think I rock???Yea I do!!!!!wwwooooaaaaahhhoooooo!!!!!!!!!!I ROCK!!! I ROCK!!....Miracles doesnt happen on me...so I made one...this is so a MIRACLE!!!!!I GAVE UP!!!!HELL YEAH!!!yes yes yes yes yes yes yes!!!!!for these freakin 3 years and 1 month 4 days......(04.02.2010) I gave up on you!!!!!!!!!yeah baby!!I succeed!!!!!woahoa!!!!!!Cant believe it!!!??? yea yea yea yea!!!!!! When i went to your profile...something suddenly strucked into my freakin stupid brain....and its when it went SMART.."ITS NOT WORTH CRUSHING ON A PERSON WHO DOESN'T LIKE YOU....AND THINKS YOU'RE ANNOYING EVEN AS A FRIEND...."OMG!!!!!SUCH A NICE THING TO THINK ABOUT!!!I ROCK!!!!!WOAHOA!!!!!YEA BABY I DO!!!!huh!!!^^ hahaha!!!! Feel the relief!!!^^ yeah~ (V for Victory!!!)huhu!!!!
PainT.T
owhhhh..Very pain...but after the 3rd time I make myself volmit today..I felt much more better^^hope Im able to go to school tomorrow^^...Miss my friends...Ryan...thanks...and sorry..
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Freakin' hell.....=.= (BIZARE!!)
huh~morning!!!!!
I cant belive this.....you actually having a crush on me???!!!Gosh..darn it!!!!! you said the roumer since form 1 is true...but you've liked.....4-5 girls in 2 years....this year you like one of my friend...=.= then yesterday you tell me that you're having a crush on me......and the roumer is true???=.=....you said im not goin to talk to you anymore....I found that a great idea...y'know why??....I'll tell you why.... :
Sk ask you "you like carmen is it??"
you shouted "no!!!!!" really loud at her....what's your problem??????
I cant belive this.....you actually having a crush on me???!!!Gosh..darn it!!!!! you said the roumer since form 1 is true...but you've liked.....4-5 girls in 2 years....this year you like one of my friend...=.= then yesterday you tell me that you're having a crush on me......and the roumer is true???=.=....you said im not goin to talk to you anymore....I found that a great idea...y'know why??....I'll tell you why.... :
Sk ask you "you like carmen is it??"
you shouted "no!!!!!" really loud at her....what's your problem??????
and yet yesterday you send me this:
"ha ha but u c how 2 find:-@ nobody in skul is like u..Ican find ppl like sly,jas,bin,jun n other but u, I cant..or havent meet so weird y"
Carmen tis is wat i said,i wanna say tat I can find ppl who r like sk,jas,bin,jun n other(their personality)but u i cant find..I mean ualways stand up 4 ur frenz u r so caring u help ur bro all the time...who does tat i said i wanna find some1 like u but look..will there b any1 like u??..indrirectly im saying tat i like u...ok idont no wat 2 say rmb last yr i ask u out 2 transformer 2 u were the 1st person i ask n when we went to yca ppl say i like u well tat was true but ididnt wanna ask u out cuz i was afraidtat we wouldb frez at all..u c when u called me last yr u were worried as a friend n i dont wanna lose some1 like tat but i guess u wouldnt talk 2 me...fyi i thought u no me..I hardly use foul words i use the word f*** less than 10 my whole life i said
damn it
What the hell????.... I selpt at 3amthis morning...on fb donno what to do...then this morning,which is now...I woke up at 8 am....suddenly I thought of many things.....things just flew into my brain when I type the message you sent. I found lies......haha....gosh..please lar..dont try to lie to me.....huh....seriously I kinda loose trust of you......I think you're a liar...=.=a stupid on who doesnt know how to lie and yet he did.....
O-kay...I have no idea what the truth is.... you've been crushing on my friends..and your friends...in these 3 years and yet you tell me..you're having a crush on me since form 1....==what on earth are you tellin' me??!!!
One hint: Dont be a liar.....to me if its so obvious...so dont lie..If you wanna lie...please be smarter, make a lie that I wouldnt find out like this..==Please..you suck at lying to me..I dont know for the others...but I have this hunch that you suck at lying to all my mates too.....
seriously I dont get you..why the hell dont you tell me in class???I you're sscared then dont even try to confess..== I like friends who're straight.....who doesnt hit around the bushes....but you..??tce....
I dont know why after I thought you sooooo many darn things..you didnt even bare in mind,that's what I saw....example:
#1:
I ask you not to be so stric on my mates....my friends..or the other students.... and yet you confoscate xiao jun/wen siang's cards.....you gave them three short seconds..I still remeber how you said..."3!2!1!..gimmie the cards now!"...what the hell are you doing!!!!!!!! I regret for not stopping you..Im sorry guys..I didnt help....==To forgive people is to forgive yourself..but you're doing neither one....==
#2:
Do not use your freakin prefect power to teach sk your freakin lessons...see waht did you did..:
that time when sk was asking you to tell us what did you ment by 'there's 2 meanings'...you told her "who do you think you're controling?" I was freaked out...what the hell are you telling my friend..that moment I started to get so angry that I felt like kicking your ass!!!!==then she ask"can you please tell??you're not helping"...I'll never believe that you said"Im not your dog.."WHAT THE HELLLL!!!!!!!Darn it !!! you're such a freak!!!!!!
I've tried to ask friends to not hate you..I told them I didnt found you hardto go with...you're not that bad afterall......but I guess I was wrong......
I cant belive that you're such a...a..I dont know how to DISCRIBE your freakin' eveilness......Jas was thinking did she and Sk inffluence me for disliking you???I thinked properly....carefully.....clearly...seriously...they're not influencing.....Its true form the heart!!!=.=
huh..I guess it's that much for today...well...I will still TRY to not IGNORE or HATE you..dont know I can even pass myself...=.=
I wish you'll FREAKIN' change your attitude...which I dont even belive that you CAN....=.=...........
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Life~
Nobody knows the pain I have in me..but I still try to smile in everything ,everytime,cuz Im cheered up when I see other friends smile with true happines...
Fighting with my LIFE isnt an easy thing...Its like falling down on sharp rocks EACH STEP I TAKE....
I try to think Im not crazy..But sometimes I just couldnt resist my thoughts...Im scared actually..im scared im not normal..but please..let me be normal....there are a few coinsidents:
#1:sleepless nights..(the worst night ive ever had was on...i forgotten lar the 4th day of school??..yea think so..I slept early..8.45pm...til 11 somthing i haent get to sleep yet..I twist and turn....try sleeping on the floor...try many posts..but it doent work so..I waited then I fell asleep..)
#2problem with controling my emotions..
#3not feeling well but dont know why..
#4somtimes EMO..(most of the times happens when Im alone..In my room...)
I listen to music to control everything..when I feel sad..I listen to music...when I'm happy..dance along..^^Even when I feel mad..I'l listen to music..that's why I say MUSIC ROCKZ MY LIFE....
Hope I wouldnt have any problems.....please..^^
Carmen
Fighting with my LIFE isnt an easy thing...Its like falling down on sharp rocks EACH STEP I TAKE....
I try to think Im not crazy..But sometimes I just couldnt resist my thoughts...Im scared actually..im scared im not normal..but please..let me be normal....there are a few coinsidents:
#1:sleepless nights..(the worst night ive ever had was on...i forgotten lar the 4th day of school??..yea think so..I slept early..8.45pm...til 11 somthing i haent get to sleep yet..I twist and turn....try sleeping on the floor...try many posts..but it doent work so..I waited then I fell asleep..)
#2problem with controling my emotions..
#3not feeling well but dont know why..
#4somtimes EMO..(most of the times happens when Im alone..In my room...)
I listen to music to control everything..when I feel sad..I listen to music...when I'm happy..dance along..^^Even when I feel mad..I'l listen to music..that's why I say MUSIC ROCKZ MY LIFE....
Hope I wouldnt have any problems.....please..^^
Carmen
Are you angry??
Is Young angry of me cuz I didnt concerntrate on what she's telling??Im so sorry..Young...I love you..I was chatting with you...Messaging Jas....Talking over the phone with Harn....Im so sorry young..T.T...
Sunday, January 17, 2010
what does love feel like??
Its Sunday today....
Honestly...Im still thinking of you....Trying hard to forget...almost success to forget you....almost...Im trying^^
I admire my friends whom are involved in LOVE life...(most of them)..But I dont wanna get involved....because I think it hurts...and like what Chee Chong said....Love sucks....(I finaly agree what he said...>.
I'll forget you in a short time....suddently feel like I dont wanna forget..haha...I'll try my best though....eventhough you said you're single on fb....but I belive that you LOVE her...am I right??I dont know who SHE is but Im sure that she's much more bette r than me...obviously^^Im miss those times when we're in Primary school....when we WERE good friends ONCE....I wish we could still be friends....I dont want to feel weird 'bout anything between us after this....Im sorry to make things feel embaressed....
Honestly...Im still thinking of you....Trying hard to forget...almost success to forget you....almost...Im trying^^
I admire my friends whom are involved in LOVE life...(most of them)..But I dont wanna get involved....because I think it hurts...and like what Chee Chong said....Love sucks....(I finaly agree what he said...>.
I'll forget you in a short time....suddently feel like I dont wanna forget..haha...I'll try my best though....eventhough you said you're single on fb....but I belive that you LOVE her...am I right??I dont know who SHE is but Im sure that she's much more bette r than me...obviously^^Im miss those times when we're in Primary school....when we WERE good friends ONCE....I wish we could still be friends....I dont want to feel weird 'bout anything between us after this....Im sorry to make things feel embaressed....
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