Damned Options...

ACE or KC??

Australia,please.

Sorry I hurt your feelings ku...but I really dont know which one to choose...because there's no option for the one I really wanna go...

Ace is a nice school..interesting. But I just dont have the interest in that school...You said that you want me to be happy..yeah..you really care about my feelings but I just dont get it...Im going to be happy over there....I'm always trying my best to be happy over here...but then,Im not THAT happy still...
I dont wanna talk about Australia in front of ye guys because I dont wanna be a BRAT...I rather keep everything to myself than seeing ye guys getting disappointed..It's obvious that I've failed keeping ye guys from getting disappointed.I really tried my best to not show my feelings and let you just choose everything,I didnt know this was a WRONG thing...Im very sorry..

I really wanna go to Australia....
Daddy said that I can only stand being over there for 3 months...I dont get it...why??Does he know how much I love that place?
Mama said that I wanted to go because everyone is going.. Well I can tell you, She really freakin broke my heart...AND that is NOT true.Obviously.
Ku,you asked me why I wanted to go there so much. I said I dont know..well, I really dont know. I somehow gave you another answer by saying that I feel happy over there.It's true. You tell me that I felt happy being there because every trip to Australia was in a holiday mood. Okay,this is an acception. but then, how would you know if I wont feel happy if I live there and study there? yes.I'll be alone over there...I'll feel lonely..but...huh...I just dont get it.
I said that Val,Mayzinn are doing very well..you said because they have their parents with them..fine..

You said that I can go under 2 conditions:
#1:I can take care of myself
#2:I can catch up

Well, I'm now trying my very best to prove it to you..but to you I never seemed to pass...

That's why I would really love to keep all the feelings to myself...Everything will be so much better. I keep my feelings to myself,and everyone can live a so called HAPPY LIFE..Hopefully.


Carmen
9:30pm
17.11.2010