Saturday, January 30, 2010

Freakin' hell.....=.= (BIZARE!!)

huh~morning!!!!!

I cant belive this.....you actually having a crush on me???!!!Gosh..darn it!!!!! you said the roumer since form 1 is true...but you've liked.....4-5 girls in 2 years....this year you like one of my friend...=.= then yesterday you tell me that you're having a crush on me......and the roumer is true???=.=....you said im not goin to talk to you anymore....I found that a great idea...y'know why??....I'll tell you why.... :


Sk ask you "you like carmen is it??"
you shouted "no!!!!!" really loud at her....what's your problem??????
and yet yesterday you send me this:
"ha ha but u c how 2 find:-@ nobody in skul is like u..Ican find ppl like sly,jas,bin,jun n other but u, I cant..or havent meet so weird y"
Carmen tis is wat i said,i wanna say tat I can find ppl who r like sk,jas,bin,jun n other(their personality)but u i cant find..I mean ualways stand up 4 ur frenz u r so caring u help ur bro all the time...who does tat i said i wanna find some1 like u but look..will there b any1 like u??..indrirectly im saying tat i like u...ok idont no wat 2 say rmb last yr i ask u out 2 transformer 2 u were the 1st person i ask n when we went to yca ppl say i like u well tat was true but ididnt wanna ask u out cuz i was afraidtat we wouldb frez at all..u c when u called me last yr u were worried as a friend n i dont wanna lose some1 like tat but i guess u wouldnt talk 2 me...fyi i thought u no me..I hardly use foul words i use the word f*** less than 10 my whole life i said
damn it
What the hell????.... I selpt at 3amthis morning...on fb donno what to do...then this morning,which is now...I woke up at 8 am....suddenly I thought of many things.....things just flew into my brain when I type the message you sent. I found lies......haha....gosh..please lar..dont try to lie to me.....huh....seriously I kinda loose trust of you......I think you're a liar...=.=a stupid on who doesnt know how to lie and yet he did.....
O-kay...I have no idea what the truth is.... you've been crushing on my friends..and your friends...in these 3 years and yet you tell me..you're having a crush on me since form 1....==what on earth are you tellin' me??!!!
One hint: Dont be a liar.....to me if its so obvious...so dont lie..If you wanna lie...please be smarter, make a lie that I wouldnt find out like this..==Please..you suck at lying to me..I dont know for the others...but I have this hunch that you suck at lying to all my mates too.....
seriously I dont get you..why the hell dont you tell me in class???I you're sscared then dont even try to confess..== I like friends who're straight.....who doesnt hit around the bushes....but you..??tce....
I dont know why after I thought you sooooo many darn things..you didnt even bare in mind,that's what I saw....example:
#1:
I ask you not to be so stric on my mates....my friends..or the other students.... and yet you confoscate xiao jun/wen siang's cards.....you gave them three short seconds..I still remeber how you said..."3!2!1!..gimmie the cards now!"...what the hell are you doing!!!!!!!! I regret for not stopping you..Im sorry guys..I didnt help....==To forgive people is to forgive yourself..but you're doing neither one....==
#2:
Do not use your freakin prefect power to teach sk your freakin lessons...see waht did you did..:
that time when sk was asking you to tell us what did you ment by 'there's 2 meanings'...you told her "who do you think you're controling?" I was freaked out...what the hell are you telling my friend..that moment I started to get so angry that I felt like kicking your ass!!!!==then she ask"can you please tell??you're not helping"...I'll never believe that you said"Im not your dog.."WHAT THE HELLLL!!!!!!!Darn it !!! you're such a freak!!!!!!
I've tried to ask friends to not hate you..I told them I didnt found you hardto go with...you're not that bad afterall......but I guess I was wrong......
I cant belive that you're such a...a..I dont know how to DISCRIBE your freakin' eveilness......Jas was thinking did she and Sk inffluence me for disliking you???I thinked properly....carefully.....clearly...seriously...they're not influencing.....Its true form the heart!!!=.=
huh..I guess it's that much for today...well...I will still TRY to not IGNORE or HATE you..dont know I can even pass myself...=.=
I wish you'll FREAKIN' change your attitude...which I dont even belive that you CAN....=.=...........

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Life~

Nobody knows the pain I have in me..but I still try to smile in everything ,everytime,cuz Im cheered up when I see other friends smile with true happines...

Fighting with my LIFE isnt an easy thing...Its like falling down on sharp rocks EACH STEP I TAKE....

I try to think Im not crazy..But sometimes I just couldnt resist my thoughts...Im scared actually..im scared im not normal..but please..let me be normal....there are a few coinsidents:
#1:sleepless nights..(the worst night ive ever had was on...i forgotten lar the 4th day of school??..yea think so..I slept early..8.45pm...til 11 somthing i haent get to sleep yet..I twist and turn....try sleeping on the floor...try many posts..but it doent work so..I waited then I fell asleep..)
#2problem with controling my emotions..
#3not feeling well but dont know why..
#4somtimes EMO..(most of the times happens when Im alone..In my room...)

I listen to music to control everything..when I feel sad..I listen to music...when I'm happy..dance along..^^Even when I feel mad..I'l listen to music..that's why I say MUSIC ROCKZ MY LIFE....

Hope I wouldnt have any problems.....please..^^


Carmen

Are you angry??

Is Young angry of me cuz I didnt concerntrate on what she's telling??Im so sorry..Young...I love you..I was chatting with you...Messaging Jas....Talking over the phone with Harn....Im so sorry young..T.T...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

what does love feel like??

Its Sunday today....

Honestly...Im still thinking of you....Trying hard to forget...almost success to forget you....almost...Im trying^^

I admire my friends whom are involved in LOVE life...(most of them)..But I dont wanna get involved....because I think it hurts...and like what Chee Chong said....Love sucks....(I finaly agree what he said...>.
I'll forget you in a short time....suddently feel like I dont wanna forget..haha...I'll try my best though....eventhough you said you're single on fb....but I belive that you LOVE her...am I right??I dont know who SHE is but Im sure that she's much more bette r than me...obviously^^Im miss those times when we're in Primary school....when we WERE good friends ONCE....I wish we could still be friends....I dont want to feel weird 'bout anything between us after this....Im sorry to make things feel embaressed....

Hope she know tht you love her...and hope tht you'll be happy with her..^^

O.o....

huh~tyring erally hard to forget you...why not teach me how???please....