I've been thinking of moving into the hostel for a long time...
so I asked my mom for permission. she dont allow me to move in....I told her I woulnd have that much distractions if I move into the hostel..it's just for my result's sake....but she said she wouldnt want to miss seeing me grow up...she said I'll have a chance to stay in a hostel...i told her is not the same...she said if I move in to the hostel...we'll not have that much interaction...
my grandma..she always think in her way!! I dont like it...gosh!!! I told her it's not her fault that I wanna move into the school's hostel..i wanna move in to study..(plus it's fun to stay with your friends....)she's now upset cuz she thinks its her fault...and now it's really kinda HER fault that Im not allowed to move in...
I thought fr many days...thinking how to convince my mom....she told me she was proud of me cuz I've done my preparation(on convincing her and finding all the informations)..she told me she was convinced...I thought the same too..I thought I can convince her...I just cant think of anything,for her to disallow...but what she got is"I dont wanna miss seeing you grow up".. I was like *'SHIT'.... I asked her how on earth would see missed my growth,she said we'll have less interaction on daily stuffs like 'how am I goin on in school','how's my homework' and stuff...i told her I will tell her everything when I reached home on friday or saturday..she said that she wouldnt be fully filled with what happend...and about my grandma being upset of herself....these 2 reasons just made a PERFECT way to stop me from going....
ugh...I'm sad...extremely sad. Im fustrated.... I've been like this for the 2nd day..and it'll go on...(my fusstration)... there's a part that my mom told me about the growth thingy that eventhough there's gonna be happy,sad, angry memories but there'll be something to remeber...after that conversation..I though....from now on...there'll only be sad memories for them to remember....
Im sorry but still...
23.5.2010
