Soulmate

SOULMATE...

One thing that they'd said in Night World--the novel.

In reality..Does anyone believe in soulmate?? Will I meet mine?? It doesnt matter the age,the looks or if they're enemies...they're just MENT TO BE TOGETHER..they're SOULMATES...But of course,in the novel,where I read until,are all nice endings..because it's really hard to SEPERATE soulmates...REALLY HARD..

They said that, When soulmate found each other,they'll have this very very special feeling..like electric shock,I mean like when they LOOKED at each other DIRECTLY...
But,they can also feel something when they TOUCH..:) It's like magic..Nobody can control it:)

I would really wanna have THAT..:P

I would REALLY wanna know if ANYONE,in this world,have ever had that feeling... ??


Carmen
28.11.2010
8:08pm

Night World

Night world<3

Night world,is actually the name of 8 series of books.
I’m reading the 3rd book now..It’s really nice:)

I like Mary-Lynnette..Her character is exactly like mine:)..just maybe a LIL different.
The name ‘Night world’, also gave me a lil idea of myself..hmm..okay…see Night world,to me includes DARKNESS.COLD.PEACE.SAFETY.and the whole GALAXY above the sky… really..It feels nice to even just THINK of it:)

Mary-Lynnette said that she felt safe at night..It’s like the night belongs to her..well that was what I was thinking before I read the 2nd book, where Mary-Lynnette only appear :)I wrote it here too…but I kinda forgotten the title..

I don’t know if anyone would ever think like me… Like this. Really, like if anyone could feel how I felt for the night…SO PEACEFUL…and NICE.

Owh right,
Late evening (about 7 o’clock, for Malaysia) Look up the sky, It’s very beautiful…Try looking at it EVERY eveningJ MEZMERIZINGJ AWsome. It is because the sky will change its colour and pattern every day…Really just try once, it’s lovely:)



Carmen
27.11.2010
6:00pm

Back to standard 4.amazing

I never thought that I would EVER havea chance to go back to Standard 4..



But,

I do:)

Im in Thai now..studying in a Standard 4 class.

Omgawd let me tell ya HOW AWSOME it is:)



Today's my 2nd day attending this school:) Learnt alot..but still Im not able to pronounce the words correctly,which is actually ALL WRONG..:P

Im trying my best to learn everything..


All those kids...they're sooo darn Friendly!! really!! I really really loved them..



The first day,

My brother and I went in to a class..then they were like all running out and looked in..o.o cute right??? haha..they're classroom,but they ran out and turn they're heads and looked from the window at us.:D



they the rest of the day was awsome:) got to learn a lot:) It was really fun!!

I met this girl, Yeng.

Cute and friendly:)Her father is a Malaysian,but she's Thai. So she knows a little Chinese. And she's a like the translator:)



And guess what?I fell in love with this 9 year old thai boy!!(though they're standard 4,they're still 9,they start school early:) )

Biea(I guess it's spelt that way,they write in thai though)

OHMY..like who wouldnt??:) drop dead charming!!He's got that freakin charming smile!!! omg why isnt he like 16??If he's freakin 16!!!I'll love him forever!! hahaXD

I'll post they're pictures;D



OKay..then the 2nd day,which is today...

I went to school and stuff..and he's like...y'know as usual,they stare:) like im special or something...well he looked at me,THA POINT ISsssss, when I found out. HE GAVE ME THAT SO-DARN-CHARMING-SMILE of his!! dang it!!! :D

Omg he's soooo assy cute!!!!!!

ugh!! hahaXD( getting high and bitchy,please dont mind,:P I dont think there's such awsome cute lil boy in M'sia)

Like really:) who wouldnt,be IN LOVE with such a cute 9-year-old-boy?? aaah:D

gonna dream of him:P



Owh and there's this gal name Cha Cha.

very cute too:) really:)



Arggghh they're ALL very cute!! It's just that I dont know all their names...but will soon know:D



Im souuu gonna take my camera to school tomorrow:)

Gonna freakin take pictures!!!

ma hobby:P

ahhhh!!!

Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.Biea.

aha..dont mind me:P



Carmen

10:44pm

Change...

Goin EMO

I guess I'll be going EMO again.
Like seriously, I think EMO suits me..
Being happy all the time,doesnt mean that Im always that happy. It doesnt mean that I can always have happiness around me.
On the otherside,
Being EMO, I dont need to care about ANY emotions. Happiness may come to me and surprise me,but if it doesnt appear,I wouldnt get hurt again and again by UNhappiness.

EMO,
Can protect me from Harm AND UNhappiness.
Can keep me quite and slim too *wink* haha...

really...
All the combinations of the things I like leads,a lil, to EMO.
P/s: I JUst figured that out.

Though,
my type of EMO is not the VERY SERIOUS kind...
Mine is totally different,but still,counted as EMO.
I still talk and smile( when I feel like. Or when I have to. Or when happiness surprised me.)and eat chocolate(and try my best not to. cause I wanna be slim...get it?)and I dont know..Just,I'm still normal..but at the same time...abnormal...==(okay I really dont get what am I saying--) BY the way, that's what I wanted to be:D

Carmen
5:29pm
22.11.2010

Love.

Kissing your soulmate with THIS move is so dang AWSOME!!:D this is a Girl kissing a BOY...

THIS is a BOY kissing a Girl ;D

cool huh??:DD

Carmen

11:41am

22.11.2010

Darkness or Light? Cold or Hot?

Do you prefer Darkness? Or the Light??

Well I prefer darness...

I love night time...

I dont know why do I love the dark and the cold so much...

It's like everytime when night and darkness breaks in..I feel peace.

You'll have to be someone like me to feel it..I cant explain how much I love the dark...

I feel safe in the dark.

No one can see me.

So I know, that Im safer than there's anything to protect me...

And the breez of night time...

If feels so... comfortable :)

Night.Darkness.Cold.

Is my world.

Carmen

10:17am

22.11.2010

Already In Thailand

Morning!!!
Im In Thailand!!
Reached here yesterday night 9 something M'sia time:D
It's an hour difference here..


So...I saw my sister:) she changed A LOT!! Taller,slimmer.
She misses me but she treat me like a stranger..I mean,she didnt,but I just felt something weird between me and her last night...BUT THEN, when we're about to sleep..she's back to her normal self...Everything's gonna be okay!!By the way,She just went to school.:)(7.30am.Thai time)

Everything is slightly different from what I saw since I was 12 years old...


Hmm...Im going to learn Thai..Going for tuition and stuff...It's gonna be a LIL tough..but I can take it,for sure:P Im going to have my breakfast first...then I'll wait for my 'a yi' to wake up..then we'll see what can we do to pass though the day:)

Im actually watching Sonny With A Chance now...Suppose to take an early bath...but I decided to finish my blog first:DD


A yi and my sister said I grew fatter== cant blame them..Im wearing sleveless== but fine.Im working it out anyways:)


Here's some pictures when we're still in M'sia..


This is when we're looking for food..near our area:) My father,My brother and I:) My father wanted to look at the camera...(for us)but then we said it's okay,you drive.hahaXDHandsome lerhh:)

Me and my brother:D

Heehee.. and this is me:DD

Carmen

9:55am

22.11.2010

Thailand

Yo yo yo!!!

Morning guys:)

Im going to Thailand very soon this morning:)
Cant wait to meet my brothers and sisters.(you wont understand if you arent close with me ;D)

Owhh..Im waiting for my father to fetch my brother and I now..but he'snot home yet..so we'll have to WAIT ..:)

I'll still be updating this cute thinggy...
Catch up!!to see what awsome stuff am I going to do in Thailand;D


By the way, I love this type of headphone..not the one im looking for,but the same kind:D

Carmen

9:23 am

21.11.2010

Thailand trip!!!! :D

Heyyyy!!!

Im going to Thailand for THE WHOLE HOLIDAY!!!

At first I wasnt that eager to go..but then I slowly think that going there aint a bad thing too..

Im going to learn how to live on my own there:)

I think the reason I feel like going at last is because I can be myself if I go to Thai this time( there's a special reason,long story)I can be myself...:)

Carmen
10:00pm
17.11.2010

Damned Options...

ACE or KC??

Australia,please.

Sorry I hurt your feelings ku...but I really dont know which one to choose...because there's no option for the one I really wanna go...

Ace is a nice school..interesting. But I just dont have the interest in that school...You said that you want me to be happy..yeah..you really care about my feelings but I just dont get it...Im going to be happy over there....I'm always trying my best to be happy over here...but then,Im not THAT happy still...
I dont wanna talk about Australia in front of ye guys because I dont wanna be a BRAT...I rather keep everything to myself than seeing ye guys getting disappointed..It's obvious that I've failed keeping ye guys from getting disappointed.I really tried my best to not show my feelings and let you just choose everything,I didnt know this was a WRONG thing...Im very sorry..

I really wanna go to Australia....
Daddy said that I can only stand being over there for 3 months...I dont get it...why??Does he know how much I love that place?
Mama said that I wanted to go because everyone is going.. Well I can tell you, She really freakin broke my heart...AND that is NOT true.Obviously.
Ku,you asked me why I wanted to go there so much. I said I dont know..well, I really dont know. I somehow gave you another answer by saying that I feel happy over there.It's true. You tell me that I felt happy being there because every trip to Australia was in a holiday mood. Okay,this is an acception. but then, how would you know if I wont feel happy if I live there and study there? yes.I'll be alone over there...I'll feel lonely..but...huh...I just dont get it.
I said that Val,Mayzinn are doing very well..you said because they have their parents with them..fine..

You said that I can go under 2 conditions:
#1:I can take care of myself
#2:I can catch up

Well, I'm now trying my very best to prove it to you..but to you I never seemed to pass...

That's why I would really love to keep all the feelings to myself...Everything will be so much better. I keep my feelings to myself,and everyone can live a so called HAPPY LIFE..Hopefully.


Carmen
9:30pm
17.11.2010

What a day...

I watched Let Me In at Tropicana City Mall with Dom and Jas today:)

The movie was awsome... Abby is pretty:) She a vampire though... I love her character:) Had a great time:)

Thanks Dom, You're a great friend:) Thanks for the card!! It's amazing...:)Very touching..

Hey Jas, please NO SKIRT next time...I cant fight my brother with a skirt on==haha...I look weird right??Actually.... I kinda like wearing skirt..but it's inconvenient for me to kick my leg up to fight my brother...hahaXD



Carmen
9:00pm
17.11.2010

2 days... too less

It's been a long time since I posted something here... well I guess I'll post things more often nowadays since I have to days left till our holidays...

Im cryin now...in the middle of the night...because of Jaycie..thanks jaycie..:) I read her blog.I cant believe that I;ll be such an impirtant character in someone's life....really...and thank you Jaycie...(for making me cry like an asshole==):)..though..there's things I would like you to know..


Jaycie:
I love you.as a friend:)You'vereally changed...you've done well:) *thumbs up* Thank you for suffering through all my bad habbits and bad attitude.. I didnt mean to though..:P It's just that you're untoleratable sometimes:) but I know that giving you more chances wont hurt:) everybody needs chances...and you're appreciating the ones I gave you:) not bad:) Im sorry I dont have pictures about you..If I have I would put it up here:)Im really gonna miss you SUCKER:)!!!

all the best in everything:) Im always there for you:) be strong,you just have to be strong sometimes:) this is how you can live..Im telling you this THROUGH EXPERIENCE:) *wink* trust me:)

I know you'll keep it as a secret:) I know you will:)
We'll hang out sometimes:)
Always reamember,
Be strong,
DONT be too annoying *wink*
and most important,
BE YOURSELF:)

once again
I LOVE YOU:)

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I went to watch movie at midvalley today with Sk, we had fun:) We watched unstoppable:)

I hope all of us could like hang out sometimes:)
Jr3F, I love ye guys:) take care:)

carmen
23:21pm
13.11.2010

Hate...

Gosh...today was like a pice of shit...