Friendship...

Why is friendship soooooo complecated?....manythings happen this month....its so called not-a-really-happy-month for me...My bffs were so close together....but slowly 4 to 3... 3 to 2....even other friends of mine asked us what had happened....we were so close together but why suddenly....'PUFF'....done..gone far far away.....like we've no idea what jst happened......


Can anyone tell me what is FRIENDSHIP really like??Is it complicated to u guys?Is it suffocating?Hard to maintain?Difficult to continue to be together?Can anyone answer my questions? The dictionary doesn't have a good explination though...


What is love like?....The explination of the dictionary is stupidly simple.....
but i already know what does it mean!!!^^so i'm happy for this question....but not the one above...still struggeling for major help!!!!pls...if anyone could tell me...answer my questions...please....

I hate it when I'm SAD...Its like the whole world got darken.....tht feeling is SO BAD.....I love it when I'm HAPPY.....everything seems PERFECT when I'm happy....but i dont know my feelings now...should i be HAPPY or SAD????
My bffs all going away....seperating.....we do have many happy memorise...do we?jst a LITTLE sadness.....HAPPINESS ALWAYS COVER UP SADNESS....BUT why?why dont i understand my feelings now?nobody hates me...(for the moment)but i hate myself(for the moment)...i cannot help to maintain our friendship....it's got 2 BIG holes....deep holes...can i cover the holes?with sand?mud?flour?ink?water?stones?cotton?paper?.....I'm really hopeless....useless too.....why cant i mend things back?why cant i fix it up...why must we get hurt?

I made this stupid song.....dont care if it rymes or not....(jst to get rid of my painful feelings...)[but i dnt think it'll help much...]Please give some comment....(even if it sucks!!)
Title:Sinking Friendship

Its so hard to maintain a friendship,

must we all get hurt?

Why is thins painful thing,

happening to us?

Its like a sinking frindship,

drowning into the sea!

It doesnt feel good,

breaking up you and me~

Have you forgotten,

the memories we had?

we were exploring our friendship,

like its never gonna end!!!

woah!!!!yea! yea! yea! yea!

Its like a sinking friendship,

tht i'll never forget!

I hate this feeling

which I cant help to make it back!!!

OHHHHH!!!!NO! NO! NO! NO!

Its like a sinking friendship,

tht we'll never bring it back.

It feels like its drowing

deep-down-under-there-----

This was a really short one...really hope tht this will NEVER happened to anyone of US...always tolerate ur best friends in a GOOD way....always be honest to each other...promiss that you all will never seperate...or ELSE....the metal doctor is goin to be VERY busy with u guys...haha..

night^^

xoxo,

Carmen